I know it's the old topic but I - honestly - know this feeling. Back then, when I finally achieved my current position, I was really hyper and I trully wanted to give some input into the server. Hosting events, being active and kind to the community, speaking to them in a polite way, trying to make "friends" not "enemies", trying to see every player as an individual person.. but the longer I was on my position the more I felt like it's not as colorful as everyone is expecting. Players are rude sometimes, they will stab you in your back even tho you are trying to help them. I don't trust anyone beside the GM team at the moment and I'm looking carefully in every case because - even if you want to help - you can turn yourself around and finish as this "shi**y GM" that everyone around hates..
I know the exact same feeling. Some players can be very friendly, helpful and grateful. However, quite a lot of them can be toxic and borderline cruel towards GMs. The smallest mistake on the GM's part, even one that has no real impact, and some players will take the opportunity to jump at you like rabid hyenas.
I'm not sure how many GMs have experienced the following, but another thing I've noticed in the server I GM for is kinda odd, to say the least. Playing as a "legit character" seems to be anathema to some, mainly in the sometimes-toxic WoE scene. Whoever I associate with becomes the subject of wild speculation and mud-slinging. And it's not like the server has a history of cheating GMs either, the last one to have been banned for it was 2009, and we're all carefully monitored. I'm not sure if others have experienced this, but... If we can't play the game normally like any other person, why would we spend countless hours developing it and creating content?
(And just to clarify, I made this account just now to avoid using my regular one. I don't post often anyway, but I'd rather not have a pack of drama-hyenas waiting for me at home~)